profile An.Lin., 23, Full time student, Currently now studying, National University Of Ireland, Dublin. Ich bin dreiundzwangzig Jahre alt, liebe sich freuend und ich studiere uternehmen/finanz an der universität. Ich auf bin in die Deutsche Sprachschule. Loves; Travelling, subways, photography, Visual Arts, interior designs, running, floorball, events, books, cafes, strolling, talking, laughing, dreaming. " Life is not about dreaming, its about analyzing on how to achieve those dreams." my love *Get a Good DSL soon *Repaint my room *More overseas Trip *Score well for exam *More Trexi toys heh! Tagboard Advertise |
Tuesday, September 15, 2009 @ 9:39 AM
HELLLOOOO! Okay. i just shifted to therainbowy.wordpress.com and its not really ready. hence, stay tune!! written with love, jennylin:) Tuesday, September 1, 2009 @ 12:59 PM
for certain reasons. for certain reason; im closing this blog soon :)) written with love, jennylin:) Saturday, August 29, 2009 @ 1:27 PM
for some reason. unhappy. perhaps due to many reason. that i have not been able to manage my stress level well. i had exam yesterday. and i feel like dying. i studied merely only 2 days. and after i came home, i was trying very hard to do my german homework. i've been sleeping like less than 4 hour daily. making sure i make it to my german class. but then, everytime she asked me question, i always turn blanked. i feel a certain scare out of nowhere. that i wish so much to go home. yes indeed. i rushed back home after class to sleep. cause i really cannot take it. sleeping was my escape. i feel like i can fall apart anytime. Anytime. my stress level was on the brim. my whole world suddenly turn very horror. i feel like, everywhere, there's torn. everyone like taking out a knife ready to stab whoever out's there. must be stress. must be stress. maybe during stress period, you tend to be more scare and insecure. and not handling things well. something seem to trigger something. i dunno. i suddenly feel that, when no one notice you, it is actually a good thing because, it actually protecting yourself. been comfort zone, its always the most secured place. ohwells. good thing today is that, i have supper tonight with 5 people, 2 dogs. :D written with love, jennylin:) Thursday, August 20, 2009 @ 2:38 AM
ohlalla ok. about the thailand trip everything solved. although we not going but still we are in love again. ahahhs. Ohwells. anyway, meet up with Yj, jwong and elfie yesterday. then amelia at the later time YOU KNOW WHAT?? i heard something about that andrew foo. everywhere. actually tons of it. HAHHA Seriously, If you are the first class honor-look, then you dont need to criticize anyone. its your choice to group in two or do the project alone. Not as WHO EVER owns you the living. Its not as if you do alone you will get A. its the quality. PLEASE MY F. GOD. I seriously don understand man. lecturer give us a choice to group with one person as the project is way too big. and this stupid brainless KID go and quarrel with the lecturer that the person that do alone should be mark differently. And he even say that those who are weak should not be help or something. Just because he want to be benchmark to be a A class student. SHAME ON YOU. written with love, jennylin:) Tuesday, August 18, 2009 @ 1:47 PM
Time will tell. this blog is getting a little bored; i'm going add something here. which i feel quite meaningful. sometimes back, i mention about how this boycotting thingy happen in my class, my uni. Yes. University. -.- Just 2 days ago, this man actually clarify with me on what he had done. as in it was out of anger. Because, i feel how he feel. Like anger tends to overtake your rational thinking which sometimes, doing things that you never intended to. people do make mistakes. I did not ask anything. maybe i was trying to avoid such a tense situation; or maybe it was long ago i have actually not even angry about. i somehow wish to know from him, did he ever feel how i feel or how he feel at that time. as in when you hurt someone, how you feel? when you try to destroy a friendship, how you feel? Maybe the boycotting thingy was unsucessful. firstly because i doesnt really bother, just kind of disappointed to have such friend. secondly, because i don think anyone will boycott me because i never do any harm. moreover its in uni. i love talking to random people. hence i talked to most of my classmate thirdly, faith. i was pretty glad that i did not loss to my temper, and i have been controlling myself well and think rationally. Perhaps, if its last time, i might go up to him and confront him. Times that he do stuff, i still maintain. Even the chalet, i told my organizer that she could ask him for help. I actually proud of myself been believing everything will go fine ;) ohwells. ..... talking about that; my previous post. you mention i dont bothered. i bother, you say i bother this and that, now u say i don bother. what to bother? i seriously dunno man. sometimes, look at another view. in a positive way. because you wasnt rational at that time. was it good to say anything? i am ok for you to tell the whole world i am in the wrong; because i already explained. I DID MY BEST. i dont entertain such stuff like seriously. like shouting, cursing, FARKING words and insults, like YA. i do say this. but you know i have been controlling not to do that to you despite you did. dont ever let your emotional and temper overtake you. 5am. shit. im too busy till im finding a perfect reason not to tidy my toom. arghs. nights. written with love, jennylin:) Wednesday, August 12, 2009 @ 11:38 AM
answers. i shall answer ALL your question here. I am not PUBLIC-LY voicing because, i treasure you. I treat you like another sister to me, you should know. I want to be there when you breakup. be there when you need me, be there to tell you the most rubbish joke, to make you happy. wait for you and walk you home if i happen to be at lot one around 630. Telling you to look at a brighter side in life, i often tell my friend how much i treasure you like how i treasure yan. you always feel that our character clash. You always feel that we will quarrel one day. but you do not know, how i feel, like how much i cherish you as your friend. And that i even told my mother how fortunate to have you and yan as my closer friend. you know who i am, and how i react. I do not react because i don want get worst. I myself know that i have a bad temper yet i trying so hard never ever react it at you. i did not voice out, even you verbally accuse me TOTALLY. despite how much i explain, you did not hear at all. NOT AT ALL. after you read this, reflect. You know why i do not wish to pick up your call because you are in the air of anger. whenever you are like this, your voice is duper loud. I do not want to drain it more. HENCE LISTEN 1. i chose the hotel is because it has good review and its near to the bangkok famous chuktuchuk. and it open on the weekend. you don tell me you go bangkok but you didnt go there. hence i asked you to take leave on monday 2. i have school on monday. so not only you have to make sacrifice. 3. cause you are on half day leave on 24 thrus, but not willingly to take leave, so we planned it on 25 fri morning. but due to my friend, i said 24 evening, but after which, they could not take leave so i move back to 25. 4. because that time i feel that no point going to thailand when you reached there at 8-9 night-time and have to pay extra night for the hotel. 5. After i saw the hotel promotion, is 1500 for 3night + 1 night free. hence i think it is not a bad idea. so i move it back to 24. And, if we insisted to go on the 25 for 3nights, its normal rates - 2250-2750/night. To me, i was trying to find the most reasonable rates for the hotel. I calculate is about s$27/night with promotion. you cant find any better than this. 6. hence, i did look for the best place and the best rate. 7. i ask you to look because im outside but not to confirm. after which you agree that 404 room design was great hence i emailed them to ask. 8. you the one that is unconfirm because you have to transfer your money from one bank to another. hence please put away the fickleminded word. and that, confirm by 15 aug. your friend are not ready either so... nothing much wad. 9. And, hence, to avoid more conflict, i asked one of my friend to go together. so is 2 in the room which is better. 10. and before my friend confirm wanted to go, we received two email. yours is 305-211 mine is 305-404. hence, you say " I ASKED MY FRIEND FIRST" then you came back with " let chose 211" 11. I know you have half day leave so to avoid going too late, i see any other airline that have afternoon flight. JETSTAR by the time you reach is already 9. And, there is other airline that have afternoon flight. we can take jetstar back. you answered " TAKE JETSTAR. MY FRIEND SAY BETTER." 12. SINCE you say YOU never ask me to do any planning, or what so ever. mean serve me rights for being so KPO. and that, compromising with you and stuff. you sms me that you and your friend nvr intend to plan, and now you say you never ask me to plan. You don plan, i don plan then who plan?! i tot i say i get the information as my friend when there like 4-5 times and was doing reviews. ask yourself this. you the one that settle the room design despite i do not like it and wanted another one. you have chosen one why cant you let another room to be chosen by me? meaning i have no say in the room design hence, i say let it off, forget it. seriously, i do not want to reply anything to the fb, or your blog. Before i did, i smsed you asking" if you can anything you can tell me straight. your answer is " YOU STARTED IT FIRST." Like... huh!? maybe i started it first by planning. Hence, good luck. i do not wish to say anymore. i was telling my classmate this today; no matter how disagreeable, unhappy, never scold the party. YOU scolded me in msn. i didnt even get angry. You wrote such things in fb, i never answer back. i smsed you and asked, your tone was totally wrong. i don even dare to pick your call cause you sound like you going to break the phone or going to fight another round. now you wrote it in your blog which i dunno if you yourself understand the whole point or not. what do you really want? i try to avoid and you are like pushing for some answer. I was smsing you telling that i am not even a single angry. i am just confuse why are you acting like that?! And now, what? i am a pampered princess?!?! you claim that you took the effort and so on, aren't i am not? Seriously lah till now, i cant find a reason to be angry with you , just because you got the winning card which is that i treasure you SO much that i do not even know how to be angry with you. i refrain myself for answering all this reaction of yours. have you ever cross your mind, hit your mind, smashed your brain, that this thing can be settled smoothly with a kind of nicer tone or wad not by throwing your temper? you dint listen to my part and how i feel now, you just rant like this. you said i took you for granted. and you DID KNOW how hard does this feel in me not?. I just find, totally, disappointed. The problem now is enlighten by you like i should not even treat you THAT CLOSE. BECAUSE YOU WERE SO DEARLY TO ME, and you actually do not feel like it. 2years plus of friendship. yes, you do not need to go through all these. ohwells. be it then. i'm wrong to chose, to highlighted you as one of my bestfriend. this is the last time; and i'm not answering to this problem anymore. Take care. written with love, jennylin:) Thursday, August 6, 2009 @ 12:51 PM
Volunteer Ok, what i want to say now will shock people, or say i got nothing better to do, or whatever. HAHAs. you know what i am so interested now? To be volunteer. AHAHAs at where? library. YES. OKay shut up. I mean sometimes, when i have to wait for someone, i always ended up in the library. when assignment came, library again Exam, library again. because library is quiet. and i like quiet space. Ok. main point. During the holidays, i had nothing to do. i cant work. cause its only 3 weeks. anw, i still have my tuition assignments hence no point. And, i think i want to find something interesting to do. not just shopping, chilling and running. Actually what trigger me to do so is one of the lunch period, my german classmate was telling me that, if i want to study overseas or getting a scholarship, i need to show some committment to the community. and i did check some of the scholarship Singapore is giving for master degree, and its so true. you show good community commitment record or something... You know, Kaplan is not like SIM. its totally, no recreation or commitments. i saw the library the library volunteer was so official. you can even print out your volunteer-ed activities. Most of all, its flexible! the children society i took the other time, was so committed. most are in long term basis.. Recently, when i was in the library again...this librarian ask if i want to be "friend of library" and she pass me this leaflet. Actually, i was laughing inside, like me?! i saw something interesting actually; the library volunteer work Its not like what people think, stand there at the door. No no. its like helping with funny and good stuff! Story-telling and some random Craft thingy with kids blaaaa. and collecting books and distribute to poor kids. WHA. this one i like. Teen workshop, etc Anyway, its only a few hours and i can even chose what i want to do. from the work, to time, to date. all stated. HAHAHS. so flexible lah! HAHAHAS and i went back home and signed up immed. HAHAHS. i am actually quite excited with it. anyway, if any of you interested, sign up from: http://vms.nlb.gov.sg and tell me! so we can go together. HAHAHAs ok. nights! written with love, jennylin:) |