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for some reason.

2009-08-29T13:27:00.000-07:00

unhappy.

perhaps due to many reason. that i have not been able to manage my stress level well.
i had exam yesterday. and i feel like dying.
i studied merely only 2 days.

and after i came home,
i was trying very hard to do my german homework.
i've been sleeping like less than 4 hour daily.
making sure i make it to my german class.

but then,
everytime she asked me question,
i always turn blanked.
i feel a certain scare out of nowhere.
that i wish so much to go home.

yes indeed. i rushed back home after class to sleep.
cause i really cannot take it.
sleeping was my escape.
i feel like i can fall apart anytime.

Anytime.

my stress level was on the brim.
my whole world suddenly turn very horror.
i feel like, everywhere, there's torn.
everyone like taking out a knife ready to stab whoever out's there.
must be stress. must be stress.

maybe during stress period,
you tend to be more scare and insecure.
and not handling things well. something seem to trigger something.
i dunno.

i suddenly feel that,

when no one notice you,
it is actually a good thing because,
it actually protecting yourself.

been comfort zone, its always the most secured place.
ohwells.
good thing today is that,
i have supper tonight with 5 people, 2 dogs. :D

ohlalla

2009-08-20T02:38:00.001-07:00

ok. about the thailand trip
everything solved.
although we not going
but still we are in love again. ahahhs.

Ohwells.

anyway,
meet up with Yj, jwong and elfie yesterday. then amelia at the later time
YOU KNOW WHAT??
i heard something about that andrew foo. everywhere.
actually tons of it.

HAHHA
Seriously,
If you are the first class honor-look, then you dont need to criticize anyone.
its your choice to group in two or do the project alone.
Not as WHO EVER owns you the living.
Its not as if you do alone you will get A.
its the quality. PLEASE MY F. GOD.

I seriously don understand man. lecturer give us a choice to group with one person as the project is way too big. and this stupid brainless KID go and quarrel with the lecturer that the person that do alone should be mark differently. And he even say that those who are weak should not be help or something. Just because he want to be benchmark to be a A class student.

SHAME ON YOU.

the enjoyment.

2009-07-30T11:34:00.000-07:00

what's the best enjoyment in life?
party or peace?

nowadays i feel the numbness and boredom.
and feel very easily get irritated by people.
like, unreasonable and weird people.
most of all,
school expectation and stress.
Everyone are like competing with each other when the result are release.
I am always so afraid if anyone would ever see my result.
and the questions like
" still in first class?" " How many As?"

first class , second class.
is really strangling me. hard.
Everyone around me are so potential.

tired.

Anyway, i find even more hard to sleep at night.
i have bad cough when coming to night.
and doctor say advise me to slip a glass of hot drink and relax yourself before bed.
so, these 3 days, i dim my lights, i switch on my orange lamp,
drink my hot cereal, listen to my recently fav "flightless bird"
damn nice.

okay. going bed.
nights!

plant love.

2009-07-26T12:32:00.001-07:00

Fruitful week.
Why call it fruitful? Not that i went anywhere, but i found meanings.
as Usual, we gain some, we loses some.

This week, i feel love.
from friends especially.
I always feel like, i have to go to class to meet childish people are hard.
But then
i found that comparing those minority,
i have majority friends around.
they smile, they approach me.
they make sure im feeling good and well.
how nice. ;)

i feel like staying home this weekend,
due to assignment to rush, and been sick as well.
i always grumble staying home.
but this week, i feel like staying. Maybe i have been out always.
I have hazelnut caffe with me, Tv, Aircon and making sure that my temperature is normal.
i rest, i wake up to type again. i watched soccer with my dad,
and see my mother grumble that im so tan and sick.
i'm amaze quite a number of my friends are online on saturday
MSN, are great mates!!
it's sooooo goood!

I have to work hard this sem. My last sem OB result was abit toooo depressing.
MC result are still pending. not much hope i guess. ;(

i feel like painting a pink daisy in my room to make it more cosy and love. heh.

German class as usual, funny with melvin and ziyuan around.
they tease each other,
they will grumble at me been late.
making sure that the teacher call my name.
say my waterbottle is gay.

Ziyuan is able to say the most amazing vulgarities that,
it sound so high-class man. HAHAHAHs
our future lawyer, is a joker man.

whatever.

HAHHAs.

i just realise that, i hate self-centered person.
i have to admit that sometimes im one,
but i am not to the extent of competing with people,
with tiny matters,
thinking my own liking 24h always,
and blaming people and not looking at themselves first.

i always strongly believe, truth stays and
you will achieve much more unexpected things.
and should not be defeat by false statement.
the past incident concluded i should even be more firm.
and i believe, wise people listen to truth
not from the losers. heh.

congrats yanjia upon his success to his final theory paper. HAHAHS
btw,
something random.
i think, next time when im going tanning, i should actually open up my toes.
cause the toes in between are so white. it's so freaky ugly ! hahahs.

ich liebe auf finden zu lebzeiten ;)
Die besten Sachen im Leben gibt es Umsonst.
gute nacht!

week back.

2009-07-24T10:55:00.000-07:00

week back here, i fall sick immediately.
can be expected. Dint really drink much water over there.
Im down with 2 mega painful ulcer, sore throat that making cough at times.

and i'm getting so tired recently.

i'm been so home-sick. i do not know that my room has actually turned into a recreation room.
my dad plays my computer, my mum plays my Psp and my bro watched my tv all in my room. Oh ya! daddy promise to buy me a macbook when his pay comes in. weeeeet!

im chosing the bridesmaid dress in 2 weeks time. My cousin are like pestering me saying that i have a vacant seat available. the thing is, i really do not have any one to bring over to the dinner. this is quite depressing and quite stress man.

Met Joshua today. cause he is reservice near my area. had dinner and talk rubbish. ahahs.

oh man. had to sleep early today. German class tomorrow. ciao.

under the water, under the sea.

2009-07-22T10:42:00.000-07:00

UPDATES!!!!!!!!!!!

yes yes. i'm way too busy to update this blog. abit tooo dead. HAHAHs. i must rewind back to last week.

Last saturday 11/7
German class - my favourite Curry chicken with my german classmate clicks then back to tuition centre.

sunday 12/7
i went Sentosa because i do not have sunday tuition. and failed to tan dark. AHHAHAs. then back to coffee nation that we had last weekend.

Monday 13/7
School, tuition then ziqi pick me up to accompany him for dinner. Guess what? He drove his brother new honda civic typeR. Its pretty COOOL. as in, the pickup, the power, the accerlation makes people.. eh.. high. HAHAs.
back to his yewtee house, we changed the car to his Rush. actually i would prefer his Rush as it was way too cute. I used to have fetish for landrover. That's speak for all.

Thrusday-sunday
night ride to redang island. It was my most memorable time. CLEAR blue sky, sand and those underwater animals are duper ENORMOUS. and guess what? i found blue sand. Ohwells. this i will blog later as it was way tooo long.

Photo with the instructor. The night that we search for blue sand.

ohwells. continue...

Monday
back to school. after school walked with yan jia and elvie to PS. then shopped awhile before heading to tuition. have a nice talking session with elvie. And both of us missed it. HAHAHs.

Tuesday
HARRRRRRY POTTTTTTERRRRR!!!! with uni mates.
with mark and andy. Jonathan watched it hence was intended to watch him play soccer after movie. Nothing much is AMK hub. So after the not-so-nice dessert, we head on to ION. Mark drove some CRV car which reminds me of some transformer car. hahas. Grand opening ceremony. He was soooo excited over those shop, even the carpark. LOL. He was so tempted to buy the Tag H. watch which in the end he thinks he should buy a new laptop instead. HAHAHs.

did i tell you that i was so sad when the Albus dumbledore died in harry potter's movie? Argh. i was controlling so hard to pull back my tears. And the huge Acromantula spider die as well. argh. that cute creature.

Wednesday
nothing much. break with karen, elvie and yanjia as the guys left early. Yanjia said something so funny that ended up me laughing non-stop. oh ya. those loser as usual make some queer comments. Fuck them man.

I think my mother has been missing me quite alot. She was nagging me that i am so tan now, check my forehead pimples now and tend. then look so close to my face. AHHAs.
i'm having sorethroat now and she is nagging madly at me. LOL. how cute.

argh. got to wake up early tml. 6am to meet Joshua Cheong for breakfast. dot dot dot.
Nights~

fruitful.

2009-07-12T11:49:00.000-07:00

i skip school on thrusday and friday,
to complete my report. heh. i totally have no time due to work.banyway,
i done my assignment like 6am on friday morning, and doubt i could wake up for class. woke up early to do my referencing, cover page, content , spelling checking etc.
my korean classmate even called if i'm going to hand in my assignment. hah.
and i wonder why korean like to read our chinese name rather than other english.
HAHAHs.

anyway, went over to Goethe to submit my 3rd sem german class fees.
time flies. i taking my first international german test in sept.
i doubt i could make it. i always try to script tru everything.
the funniest part is
i know how to fill in the blank.
i understand the word.
just that when ever she ask me stuff. i tend to have mental blockage. ohwells.

because i'm away next week, i have to attend the class on wednesday.
sometimes, i love been busy.
sometimes, i hate been busy.
busy tend to make me lost alot concentration now.
but then,
what looking forward, was the outcome i guess.

then i went to meet Art, eric and sam. cher ditch us again. as usual. went over harry's for drinks. Haze came over to meet me. then we hit home together.

Saturday was like germanclass- classmate lunch-tuition for 3 hrs - dinner steamboat at marina.
sunday was tanning then to my new favourite cafe at bali lane. its near haji lane. just right beside it.

i got my new bumberbee backpack and super chio sunglass. i'm so ready for my trip.
ohwells,i'm so excited for my trip.

now the problem is..

my 35L backpack is so duper big. Ammar, brandon and other of my friends comment its alright and i should get it. hence tata. i can share with my brother as well. :))

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some happenings;
my poly-best-guyfriend broke up wit his gf. because i click with the gf so well that we became quite close as well. much closer than the guy. the question was, both asked the same question which was making me so sad.

" will you chose one between us?"

the answer is obviously NO. i feel bitter more than them. i dunno the reason. i dunno what i could say to save things back. i feel i'm partially wrong.i dunno.

side track abit.
i saw many common cases of that parent are separated.
which makes me take a second closer look at my family.

although i have a irritating mother who snatch my PSP and now my laptop to play games, one who nags at me alllllll day long for all reason, she sometimes amazing help me to do things and bear with my temper.

although i have a irritating smelly brother who is so fat and fart in my room, i do still love when he comes to my room and do silly dances.

although i have a weird father who sing some romantic loves song in the public, makes me turn in circle like i used to when i'm young, and always sing those cheezy song that makes me laugh like mad in the supermarket.

affection sometimes do really dry up.
whenever i see my dad do all those cheezy stuff to me and my mother,
most of the time, mummy will roll her eye or slap him hard,
i realise and actually understand how and why my mother will fall for my dad.

family, its hard to maintain.
and its never takes things for granted.

every family is unique. and i love mine deeply. :))

i cant wait.

2009-07-06T13:11:00.000-07:00

I CANT BELIEVE MY BEST FRIEND IS ATTACHED!!!
I'm HAPPY FOR YOU;
Although you broke up with me. BOO! hahas.
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.
Chermaine is so call; attached.
Now is my bestfriend.
Good man.
I feel so empty now.
OR its The FACEBOOK thingy. ohwells.
you know i still loves you. Hahas.

I cant wait for my island trip.
I cant wait for the photos i took last saturday.
I cant wait to go back to that cafe at haji lane.
I cant wait for my German class's pink theme party;
I cant wait to meet all my loves August!
most important now:

i cant wait to get my MRP done.
Hell.

discipline is only for the wise
-proverbs 4

till then; XOXO :))

comparsion.

2009-07-03T01:53:00.000-07:00

i got no time recently, or am i fully maximising my time?
recently, i read something interesting,

1. the greatest enemy is not people, but you yourself.
2. socialization and money
3. simplistic and high life.

all of us are so different.
in life, or in reality.
and sometimes it makes me wonder, who we really want to be.
what really makes one happy?

ohwells.
funny thoughts.
i got no time for my MRP. NO time at all.
i have to do my German homework, studying for tests,
work, and meeting up with friends.
i still feel, meeting with my loves is a need. because,
that's the only thing that release me from stressful world.

sometimes, i love to work. kids makes me smile.
and also, the money coming in to secure me the whole month.
but again,
i wish i do not need to work, fully concentrate on my studies.
impossible man.
girls have many wants. temptations. and i cant possible keep depend on my parent.
responsibilities comes in here.

ohwells. i'm ranting today.
cause, i wish i have more time, to work, as well as to study.
boo.

gonna go bugis. getting some stuff for island trip. duper looking towards it.
heh!
and oh ya, the next meetup.

with rueyshan and those scary peepo. :)) ♥♥♥♥♥

i promise i will upload picture once i got time :))
till then, XOXO

Schooooool starts.

2009-07-01T09:07:00.000-07:00

Three weeks holiday flew so fast.. and my 4th school term started this week.
YES. 4 term. OMFG. and my MRP was in a big mess. Hahas. i was busying partying.
Anyway, school goes well fine and tuition went well fine as well. i had my time wrote out and planned and everything goes fine accordingly. HAHAs. i am maximising my time.

I love it. :))

my lecturer was a cute one, although his speech was fast but he was entertaining us all the time. lesson was not even boring at all.:))

anyway, i was so broke that when yesterday i checked my bank, i have $200 GST thingy credited to my bank! yipeee. hahahs. :)) ok. off track.

Oh ya, i went to watch transformer with 12 people man last week. And it was an awesome show. for a period of time, i was thinking what is that big plane. IT's JETFIRE!!! OH MY FREAKING GOD. and bumblebee is as usual, cute and adorable. Heh. i amm going to get the show and probably watch it over again and AGAIN. ahahs

anyway, i cant wait to go for my island trip 2 weeks later and bathing below the sun. WOOOSH! Oh ya, IKEA is on SALE this week!!!

oh ya, i was practically school, tuition, tuition and study again. although tuition are making me mad sometimes, when my little kids are going out of hand, screaming and yelling.. but then sometimes, they are the ones that build my day. once, i have this kid who is so adorable. she even has this imaginary friend called isabell. ahhaha. anyway, tuition to me is flexible, and good money. although sometimes, student cancel the tuition frequently and parent dragging the payment. oh wells. everything still fine as well. :)

i could not believe that my little kid pierce her tongue. ahaha. shocking eh?!
oh well, got to wash up and sleep. 2 days without school yipeee. :))
nighS!

fruitful

2009-06-21T11:56:00.000-07:00

Went swimming, then unplanned supper with zixian, joyice, jason and dunno who. Was hell fun.
gossip of all sort of things, secondary school life, track n field etc. Jalan Kayu is so packed.

Oh talking about swimming,
supposingly, Qiuyan gonna teach me to swim today.
she was late because, metres before she reached the pool, she forgotten her suit.
yes. blur head.

then down in water. she trying to explain. within 5min,
i found out...
i know how to swim!?!?

WHAT THE HELL?

actually my dad teach me how to swim when i was 5 lah.
but, i just don know how to breath during swimming.
and swimming seem more tiring than running.
and i always didnt really swim.
Or even go to pool.
so, her job was done. she taught me how to breath. hahas. 5mins, i know how to swim.
i going to tell my mother later. when she awakes. HAHAHS
i think she will be damn shocked.

going to take pictures from joyice later. post post post.

this week, i better stay put myself at home cause, i have not even finished up my MRP report.
10 July, Good luck to me.

This holiday was so fruitful. i wish it was long. I met all my usuals, wonderful loves, etc.
I wish i could go supper and gossip like everyday with them,
meet up with them, and endless of fun.
come to think of that, although how much fake and horrified people i met or came across,
end of the day, those that should stay, are always there.

I soooo don want to go back school,
to face childish fake assholes peepo.
Roll my eyes.

btw, anyone have photoshop not?

oh its friday!

2009-06-20T02:44:00.000-07:00

Meet up with the usual, as well as its ruey shan's last paper.
Shawn and me bus-ed down to town and its like damn hard for us to meet up.
first i tell him i need to shit first,
then before i reached, he say he need a shit too. HAHAHs

we saw chang yi on our way to town.
Damn funny. his question can be repeated for 3-4 times.
and call shawn "zhong da~"

HAHAs.

pictures to go!

AS usual, my legs got tired again.

After dinner.

then we start to act retarded.

The full attendance.

Rubbish man.

watched drag-me to hell.
i think, i feel like dying.
dying of the loud sounds and the stupid scene.
Botak is like trying hard to scare me.
And eric another one. ownself scare, also trying to scare me.

hais. they think that my reaction looks interesting than the movie.
ohwells. next time if u see an old auntie that need help. Please do so.
LOL

in the end, they came over my place to majong while i sleep.
because i was quite freaky scare. LOL
heart them man.

loves.

2009-06-16T23:06:00.000-07:00

I wish you could grow happiness,
rather than waiting an empty shell.
understand what i mean?

:) heart you.

the regulars.

2009-06-16T22:53:00.000-07:00

Meeting up with the regulars. Friday :))
SHAWN TAN ZHONG YANG. don be weak ley.
can meet up at night right. Duh..

Excited. I'm gonna meetup all those people of mine during my 3 weeks holidays.
and counting to that, i found out 3 weeks is not even enough for me.
humpf. sad man.

Okays. see you guys. Hearts!!

HOLIDAYYYYYY!

2009-06-14T12:51:00.000-07:00

I'm in hOLiday. for 3 weeks. HAHAs.
although i have to finish my 8000 report writing as well,
i am pretty much party-ing after since my last paper.

My last paper was on the friday last week, 5 of may if i remember.
i went to butter factory.

Saturday was very much like a dead-fish. missed my German class. So went shopping with my cousins and WF to town. Pictures all uploaded in facebook . hahas. He bought me another Trexi toys.

then sunday was tuition again in the centre. cause now my tuition extended from 130 to 445. 15min break in between. was very much happy as well. Then meet Wf for dinner.

Monday was SPA treat! went to TrueSpa near my school, was prettty cool! the Bath and the full body massage was GOOD! but i think because i play floorball, carry heavy books, my shoulder tend to be hard. so when the massage, she tend to use alot of strength. Which in the end, i have shoulder-ach. TOO HARD.

tueday was a routine. Work and Sleep. happy life.

Wednesday met up with parry, Kangli and Qiuyan. went shopping bla bla bla. pretty cool. was bloated after food.

Friday meet with parry and Qiuyan to the S.A.M. damn cool. took alot of photos. and the security guard actually warned us that no photo-taking. ahhas. then Yan so called gave me 4 trexi toys because i really don know what i want for bday as well. Yesyes. its very late.

anyway, i'm so in to trexi toys man. They are adorable-ly cute. But then, some series came in boxes, which means that you have to open it, then you know what design it is. So you might have the tentency to get repeated designs. Hais. was pretty sad that i could not get the design i want and i was searching online, they are selling pretty expensive.

Saturday was meeting up with cousin. went from bugis to CBD area to lau pa sat for dinner. ordered too much food again.

sunday was going army market then haji lane then back to bugis. must avoid cityhall due to IT fair. then went to iluma. so i saw this trexi shop. ITS really their own shop. like finally. normally their toys are sold at some toy collector shop. SO this suppose to be their very own shop. i was so crazy that i went alone to see all the trexi thingy surrounding me. hhahaa

i feeel soooooo like a little girl. hahas.

then this spec-saleman came. so i asked him if he sell the series 3 or not as they not really selling any of them. so he say not yet. so i point to those little toys on the so call gallary corner, ask if they are for sales... he say not really. so was pretty upset. i thought they can sell those specific design i want. hais.
then this guy came... say if i wan any of these design, just write him a list and he can get for me. very random. i was like "huh?" cause all of them are in hidden boxes. so he say that he can get from the manufacture store. I was whoa.. he must know those trexi bigshot or what. ..
was still pretty excited, chenyie actually say my eyes are like shining when i see those toys and heard that. i replied a long and whining "REALLY?!!?"

So i ask if i can cross over (the gallary is blocked.) to take a look at all those trexis. they are like 200-300 of them on the floors. so cute!

then he say " for you can... " then he shift the blocker then allow me to jump in. pretty nice guy. so i was touching and happily looking. ITS SOOOOOOO PRETTTY!!! I think they will kill me if i accidently knocked all of them down. LOL

then he said that i can actually email him. so he went to get the email.
he passed me a card, i was stunted like, nowadays saleman also got name card.
it wrote " creative director."

i asked him a very stupid question.
" you mean you are the one that design and do all these?"
then he reply shyly and say Ya....

LOL. SOO RANDOM LAH!
then he replied " what ever specific design you want, i try to get it for you :))

WAH LIAO. he so nice can! SO NICE SO NICE!!!!!
so if any of you want any design, can email me to miss.annlin@gmail.com, i help you ask from him as well :))

www.trexi.com.sg

Last week,

2009-05-18T11:23:00.000-07:00

I have not been updating due to the Management organization assignments.
HAAH. Finally went down to school today to submit.
came back home and fall to sleep immediately.
Over tired.

anyway,
Last friday, was the last lesson for Management Change.
was upset that the lecturer did not really gave much tips.
talked to paul in the lift and he was so angry with the lecturer.
ohwells.

and friday was a good day. cause edwin came to school.
we went to have our favourite curry during lunch. LOL.
and he was telling all sort of rubbish which i could not imagine.
i was quite surprise his friend got such a high grade in his econs assignment without any references and 1 graph!?
then i found out that he is doing forex exchange as a job. NO wonder.
but he really look scary.

After school, was thinking to go back home or stay in town to wait for Lyon.
but Yan suddenly said that she is picking me up.
weet. so we went over to chinatown to have lunch.
yes again.LOL then went to SGH her work place to submit her stuff.
Due to swine flu, we have to measure our temperature over there..
when the nurses measure her temperature..
it was 38.
SHOCKING.

hahaha. so she insisted it was exam fever. and we went to 7-11 get some cold drinks.
so i was outside, looking at this poster " swine flu symtons"
when she came outside, i asked her
J: " you got sore throat?"
Y: "No"
J: "You got cough?"
Y: " No"
J: " you got flu?"
Y:" just finished yesterday..."
J: "WHAT!?!?!"

we ended up laughing madly over in the hospital.
the nurse also insisted her to wear a mask.HAHAH
and SHE, keep saying that, if she had swine flu, the first one to got it from her is me.
ohwells.

Happy Swine girl. HAHHA

afterwhich, we went over to serangoon to pick LYON up. yes. ERP $1.50 hoh!
then went chomp chomp for dinner and went back home.
went to sunshine to checkout the price for zorro injection and stuff.
saw this huge husky that look damn adorable. and a few rabbits.
i dont know rabbits need injection as well.
ahhaa
they look abit dumb and blur to me. ahaha

So saturday was my german class again.
i was wining about that i could not get into the saturday class.
Argh, so they wont be seeing me for 1 sem. i make sure i will sign up early for sem 3!
boo.

Some picture of my classmates:

most people are not inside like Dawn, suying etc.
but well, German class will never be bored without you peepo!
ich liebe Deutsche Schule

oh btw, i failed my german test... due to what? spelling errors.
ahaha
i knew the answer. but i spell it all wrongly!!! as usual. hahahaa
oh wells. at least my speaking is not that bad now. lol!

i cant go anywhere in JUNE due to swine flu is EVERYWHERE!
dots. ohwell, im going redang in july!
WAHAHAH i sleep in some island and soak myself in the water and sun.
MY LOVES!!

Okay time to sleep.
Paulaner on friday, Loof on saturday then mugged for the paper for next friday.
WORK HARD WORK HARD.

ich liebe paulaner Weissbier! Meow!
Gute Nacht, Tschüs!

argh.

2009-05-13T13:44:00.001-07:00

I hate assignments.
That's it.
I'm going mad soon.

helloooos.

2009-05-07T12:35:00.000-07:00

finally its friday tml. woot.
i have not been sleeping well.i was too tired that i either dozed off in front of my com, or on my table. hhahah. the week went not bad. i went tuition regularly. i had a pay increment. :D i was thinking how am i gonna survive as i have to pay for my sem 2 german class. and this increment came in at the right time. HAHHA.

i went to the library, borrowed books for my assignment. it was pretty sad that i could only borrow like 4 books? sians. perhaps i have to ask for mummy's IC to borrow books. hahaha.
i'm going out with the guy with a G10 camera and chermaine. ahahah. i misses her. and she finally finishes her exam.

wednesday we had group discussion. was paired with mymar girls because they call me over. and told me they added me in facebook. lol. and also.. the two korean guys who before break that told me to joined their group suddenly disappeared. lunching with edwin after which he drove off.

anw,
the most interesting thing is, the 3 guys that always sitted quietly was like A students. cause i saw their result. i wonder what they contains inside their skull. followed up, all of them automatically added me in facebook and msn. big network.

surprisingly, another girl in class asked if i'm alright. she said she saw me very sick last week. HAHA.

saw this mymar girl (i forgotten her name) in mac, that she asked me to acc her to eat as the mon mon was not in school. and she was cracking me up so badly.

but all of this, still makes me feel that i should sit alone in class. concentrate and absorb more. assignment deadlines and exam are coming. :((

so, why would i feel like changing class?

i have not been meeting up my dear Qiuyan. she is having exam as well. boo. i miss her cat. haha.
i gonna kidnapp it for a week or so. meow.

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anyway, i was pretty taken aback on how childish. no how in-mature people could be.
because im the one that brought up the topic, it means that i have the intention solving it. since HE keep emphasizing that he got nothing to say. who the one that avoid?details was he has been emphasizing how i scolded him over the net, which you should be glad that i did not brought it up in the public. and that he feels like he loses his balls or something.
anyway, since then, it makes me feel like... how disappointment a person could be.
and the person with a sucky face who scold-ed me a vulgarities out of nowhere into my face.

listen,
i dont care you do read my blog.
because its all truth.

and that so call fatass, who pushes the blame on me saying im childish to avoid problems..
and that fatass who always critise all my friends, from jen, cher, art, lynn, and whoever he had known from me.

sad to tell you, they are still with me.
because who the hell will be so fake as you.
because who the hell given you the rights to chose my friends.
because you have no balls to stand neuture,
you do not need to be so fake that call me " hi, jenny, how are you?" in such a sweet tone that makes me , giggles and at the same time, WTF + puking.

because lies doesnt exist in my dictionary, hence i take it very seriously.
you should know how childish you are from the hopakkin incident.
i have to say sorry on your behalf which i'm thinking i was crazy then.

please be mature.
i was telling my friends this and they even agree this only happen in sec school.
this action for such ages, are people with no balls, or small cock.
cause they are still young, not wise.

jenny was too busy with so much things that could not bothered abt it. lol.
childish kids.

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anw,
just received my german class photo. awesome! HEH
but it was like 70% of my classmates.

happy thing, no german class this week. woootwooot!!!
im excited on shopping trip tml!!!! heh!

truthful.

2009-04-29T14:20:00.000-07:00

we living in a world,
that cannot be expressed.
it seem like, when or whoever expressed..
its a criminal. and everyone starts to point fingers at you
because you are acting against the norms.

Like, why we keep our rights that what we need, who we want to be.
why should we be kept quiet for those unhappiness boiled up.
arent this Y generation suppose to be,
Settling things in a cool and mature ways. bringing out things to talk.
i was SOOOO amaze that it was so not truth.
because what i receive is

" whatever you say its right. I got nothing to say."
Impressive. because, next time you should tell this to your boss.

today was a very impressive day.
Because, i was quietly reading my tb. then i got bored so i randomly ask gareth a question.
I dunno how gareth can redirect to AF.
That "CB" word that shoot right into my face was impressive.
with a random question that i asked gareth, become a very huge impact.
Who have given the right that i should not speak in class.

" you got nothing to say then dont talk."

Why i should not talk to my friends.
Why should i? be controlled by you sneaky behide the backs.
You were dumbfold by my replied.
because, i have to. " why get agitated eh ?"
because i was on a bet " Non-vulgarities"
But my hand was on the book. for that moment, i wish i could throw the book right into his face to get him a state of his mind right. but for what purpose?

for that moment, you dont even dare to look right into my stares.
So where's the balls?

because i was suppose not to be like one.

because everything started with 2 person, all turns to become i am the one. because im the only one that voiced out. the funniest part in life is,
the person you helped once, will turn back and bite you back.
im not thinking about the credit of helping, im just feeling been dumb myself. ++ lesson learnt.

because you the one that walked away, you pushed it back on me again.
oh well, sometimes.. the things is not about pushing
is about the courage of facing.
Some people just avoid.
and others like us, we faced it.

cant faced it, then dont do it.

sometimes, i wish everyone will be like sandro, qiuyan, shawn, chermaine and those living right in me, because we throw unhappiness on the table and cleared it for once and for all.
for some, they kept it, and do sneaky stuff.
and why people have to say that sandro is controlling my mindset.
when, he did not even know a single things.

reasoning always involve victims.

how are you going to live out of this cruel-world.
so, what brings victory?

victory is the one that refused to act chilish against unneccessary things.

anw,
i almost got into car accident because,
Spencer refuse to check blind spot all the time.
Eh. you really need to keep in your lane.
alot of times, i see you are not doing eh.
thanks for tea btw.
scary.

HOHOHO...
im driving on saturday! and, i better get my GPS ready.
MUHAHAHAHA.

HOHOHO.

2009-04-21T12:48:00.000-07:00

i cant wait to see Qyan's adopted kitten.
HEH.
went home with my korean classmate today.
I almost died of laughing. Cause he was telling and insisting how fit he is.
And tml, he is going to arm-westling with SANDRO.

Oh btw,
THANKS FOR EVERYONE SINGLE ONE THAT TURN OUT FOR MY BDAY MADDNESS ON SATURDAY!! ESPECIALLY YAN. :))

Ohwells.
weekend was madness and fun.
and now,
im looking forward to thrusday! why!!?!
because,

Its' my bday, It's my bday.. *Rap.

HAHA. but im having presentation on the same day. BOO.
I'm.... going.... to.... SINGAPORE FLYER!!!!!

i got to sleep! CIAOOO!

Shit

2009-04-12T13:29:00.000-07:00

birthday in 10 days.
Sign of aging.
this year birthday would be a little kind of sad.

OH Shit.
a better year ahead please.

be here.

2009-04-04T14:11:00.000-07:00

i think i love my awesome life till, i do not wish for any changes.
i love every single bits, moment, seconds now.
i mean, every move, changes something.
which turns it freaky.

"how wonderful when horrible past don't repeats"
you have the most awesome friends around you,
doing the best things you ever want to be,
going to the best places you always love to go.
making the best dreams together and hit on it.

love.it.

ohwells,
things dont last.

rock'on. ((:

maddness.

2009-04-03T11:52:00.000-07:00

wednesday
was econs paper. was quite pissed with the paper. argh.
went to miramar hotel for dinner. Japanese food with eddy. damn bloated. It's awesome.
check the Ikoi japanese restraurant. AWESOOOOOOMMMME!

then before meeting eddy's friend, roy and his cabin crew friends, we went chilling at this pub near this river, think the name is M3. garden-like. i love. was dozing off in the pub. partially i was damn beat. anyway, then we took a cab like only 3 bucks to clark quay yellow jello or something, some retro bar to meet his friend.

this two SIA girl was Uber pretty. i should say. but then eddy says this " cabin crew are maddness people." i understand why. this guy ash told me that they usually get drunk and get into the flight which was like WTF? and they say its common. some even say SIA girls are eh_________. ohwells, i have no comment for that.

then we went rebel. i was half-dead. 3 days of like less than 8 hr of sleep.but then, bestfriend sandro appear! and he wants to club man. moreover, free entry for everyone so we went.
total, the guys spend like 500 bucks on drinks. like wth. they drink like bufflo. buy one bucket, can drink like in 10mins. what the hell.

in the end, i do not know how much i drank too. abit shack. and, my attention was with this SIA girl. She was attached and she was dancing fucking hot. she is hot lah. every guy she danced with, touches her top to bottom, grind like mad. i was surpriseeeee. you know lah, im not really those super clubber type. yes. she got all the guys attention man. like, for what? in the end, she hug me and dance maddly. and her awesome heel, stomped my feet.

blue-black. Good. and it was bleeding. bestfriend went to buy plaster for me. Sandro was enjoying like mad too. both of us was damn shack. HELL. Rebel was fun. TIRED LIKE MAD. 430 man. and they lost my bag ticket. awesome. spend some time searching. ohwell.

then we went spice or something or supper. took cab then back home... eddy said something in chinese to the driver which makes both of us laugh madly. do abit of my german homework with eddy before i bed at 8. what the hellllllll.

thrusday

woke up at 4. i have to lied that i am sick to skip tuition. couldnt make it to german school for soccer viewing. damn tired. i don even have strength to eat. had supper with this two guys. ended up laughing and talking crazy stuff. high on coke. they insist i should not take any sugar-level high drinks. btw, when i was out of the house, this black big dog was at the lift lobby. i was so afraid of dogs and this is damn big stray dog. we had eye-contact, and in my heart i was like " oh please.. nO!"

so i happen to walk slowly, keep remind myself not to run. and this dog followed me!!!! and hell, i stopped a few times and turned around, he stopped and pretend look else where. when i start to walk, he followed!! and at this garden near my house, i stopped and he stopped right beside me. i was like"tse tse.. shoo shoo." he ignore me.

i was like hoping he don chase or bite me man. then i reached the bus stop. he was still beside me man. so i purposely cross the road, hoping he dont follow.

and guess what? HE WATCHED THE TRAFFIC AND CROSSED THE ROAD. ENDED UP BESIDE ME AGAIN?!?!? for the moment, i think he is no different from any ghost that would will stalk me man. i wave for the cab. jumped into it. the uncle even though that was my dog!!

now, im so afraid to step out or come back late. HORRIBLE!

friday,
meet with eddy for lunch then meet bryan at vivo. watched some crazy japan metal band show which reminds me of YE XU ZHI. haha. i was quite tired.

now, i still memorising the 7 long self-introduction sentence. bloody mad.

ciao.

not progressive. :(

2009-03-27T14:45:00.000-07:00

Ohwells..
study has been bad. do not think i have anymuch process man. hopefully by this week end i could finish reading and memorise up and monday and tuesday will be the days for last min revision and qns-attempting.

have been so so lazy. blame it on the weather. and what a pathetic course that we have only 1 day holiday and the next sem will starts the 2nd day after my paper.
This is how rush they are. They cancelled our 2weeks holiday!!!! and my longest holidays is in june, which is like 2 weeks?!

i do miss UOL days when we have massive 3 month dangling holidays. HAHA

ohohoh, mreddy-yip is on the jetplane back to singapore from germany. Shld ask him to buy the brikenstock slipper back for me. Sandro will be coming back as well next week. anyway, it will be days of massive eating, drinkings and party straight after my exams. yipppee!

sleep soon. german class tml. massive. ciao
ich bin im deutschkurs :)

horrified.

2009-03-24T15:12:00.000-07:00

Time check: 6.25 am.

before i sleep, i got so much things to say, to speak, and running wildly back in my head. i guess study makes people goes mad. ha.

because the whole weekend was ruin but some unexpected circumstances that make myself, feeling unbelieveable, unacceptable. cause.. it was so duper..... childish....we are not young. and this things are happening again and again. which make my statements so true.
ended up, i went back home to sleep. because,
i cant believe myself living RIGHT HERE. together.

making untruthful plans that cancel like 30mins beforehand, labeling friends like who shld go and who shld not when there is not any problems and been pretending.

bullshits weekend.

manipulated.

2009-03-23T09:40:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, i guess my sleeping overtake me.
i sleep, eat and fall asleep. and exam coming up in a week.
Oh bitch.

who will be so kind-heart-ed to slap my butt and pinch my toes whenever im sleeping?
My mother.
who will sing those oldies song in public with me, and insisted to dance with me?
My dad.

Im jolly-fully happy that, there's a loving family i heart most. although they drove me nuts sometimes. (:

we walked past this barbie-doll shop, and i screamed.
my parent got laughing again because...
i used to think barbie doll are evil toys that might crawl out talking to me.
i couldnt sleep whenever there is new barbie doll landed at my house
hence, normally i will just twist off their heads and left it separately on the table.
hahaa.

*this spring, i want to buy the whole bloody shop of pull and bear.
they are awefully nice (:

breathless.

2009-03-21T14:33:00.000-07:00

today german class was breathless.
cause,
i got pulled out from the class. due to some funny incident. HAHAH

anw, i'm thinking, why.. so much politic. i mean why this person ask the group out, some are invited? some are not. And, why chose friends? and why cant everyone hang out? Maybe my way is just clash my sec and poly friends together. i mean, it save time, more fun and etc. Even same school have politic. ohwells. i play a bad part in here then. I just dont like it. like for what? isnt school and work make one busy?

talking about school, i was OVERJOYED that my econs assignment are over, and i did my best out of the best! heh. and just love working with raymond and amelia.
i know you stalk my blog. idiot. haha
i better work hard for econs to pull up this sem result.

i so in love with my room now. oh oh oh.
random.

anyway, i cant believe that they are deciding whether to plant this anti-lighting thingy at the merlion head to prevent anything happen again..
But..
it got me laughing madly cause...
it will look like..
teletubbies. HAHAHAH! with the anther on the head!!!

Ciao!

Seriously, i don feel like going.

awe-full.

2009-03-19T20:32:00.000-07:00

i spent the goddamn 30min thinking what to blog. this week was very gloomy. work on econs assignment on tuesday night till nearly 7am. then woke up at 1030 to prepare to go over raymond's place with amelia. Ended everything at 2plus am. i had the most aweful bubble tea over his place. HAHAA.

poorboy have to send me from sengkang to choachukang. one drain to another. thanks
Finally econs assignment are OVER!

this week was so crappy. i saw my eyebag grew and darken. i saw my pimples are making their way through, i have bad time management as my tuition kids think im so free that they keep changing their time. HATE IT. and my mum naggings. She do not know anything and only nag nag nag. nag for the sake of nagging.

i dont know what's more to say urgh.

i need a new haircut. my fringe now are so crap. im so sleepy. i don feel like travelling for particular reason. i feel like cancelled all my tuition and sleep for the whole month at my cosybed. I feel like im draining out. im so worn-out.

i need shopping. i need food. i don want turn into a geek.
ohwells. random. ciao.

weekend.

2009-03-16T13:56:00.000-07:00

HellllOO!

Ohwells. decide to get a break from my econs. Tedious! Anyway, last week end was such a blast! On friday, meet up with chermaine. OHOH. i got a new camera. And we went on snapping snapping. Then came to rest at this starbucks beside forum. Our favourite. bought my latte, and found it taste, weird. changed and able to get a free drink on my next visit!
Aftergerman classs was meeting yan. intentionally was to go cathay ben and jerry for Evan performances. but was late. Hence, meet the rest at suntec IT fair then to marina. Shopping with love and then to Clark quay drinking. Awefully fun. This belguim guy keep talking to us for a while, and we saw bear dancing. Anyway, will upload the pictures. heh. i was damn beat.

You know what? imagine hundreds of people shouting together in clark quay and saw hundreds of angmo doing funny stuff for the victory of liverpool. HELL FUN! although im not a liverpool fans, I was like running here and there!!!

I was damn high and seline was like following me in case i got lost. HAHAHAHA
AW. I miss octoberfest. :)

Anyway, Sunday was resting day. Was damn damn beat. had tuition and slept the whole night.
Ohwells. got to bed. Nights! :)

breath-less.

2009-03-13T14:20:00.000-07:00

Ben and jerry performance from EvAn tml! he promised that he will sing my fav song! heh. you rock! ciao!! :)

Weekend.

2009-03-10T12:22:00.000-07:00

Ohwells. My mouse die on me again. -.-'' Anyway, weekend was spend with loves. HAHA. caught movie and had dinner. :)

bester freund. ;)

Seline... ;)

Then me.

I got my new passport! the face as usual, very weird. Colored photo ended up blue and white. Passport now valid only 5 years compared to 10 year that we used to have.

And yap, i looking forward 1april. Econs exam as well as.. im going Hotel Miramar for buffet. weet.. im so broke recently.. haha.
the weather recently make me so lazy and so so sleepy. had lots of things to update but tooo lazy.
Oh ya, ERICKHOO bday its coming. Im still cracking what idea, i mean BETTER idea for that day. anyway, i found out, the toughest level to teach was K2 kid.

im teaching this P2 boy. The mother request that the little sister who is K2 now should joined in. Ohwell. she could not remember Alphabets A- Z which i am quite surprise. I went back home, asked my mother, when did i really start to memorise those A - Z. Im pretty sure its earlier than we stepped into K2. First few days was teaching her to memorise and easy words. I mean.. Everytime she would ask me what is this alphabets. So the word "MOTHER and FATHER" was taught like 1week!!?!? and more to come.

the second week, i wrote this "mother and father" .. she could not read!!!! i mean she do not know what it is. Then i found out, she could not recognise small letter alphabets. oh well. then after another week of learning small letter, she is more or less know how they really look like and pronouce. But then...

this week, i taught basic words like " BOY. CAT, DOG, RUN, LEG...etc... so yesterday, i pointed the word BOY and ask her to read alphabet by alphabet. So she read B-O-Y. I was pretty pretty happy about it, BUT! when i ask her " What is it called?" you know what she said?

"CAT."

B-O-Y = CAT?!?!?!?

ohwells. i know it is very funny. the mother was laughing madly. the brother laugh his ass off. i was freakout, speechless and went blank.
one word for myself.
DISAPPOINTMENT.
and now what? the dad asked me to teach about different occupation. Like at this level? how?

morning class tml. ciao!

craps.

2009-03-06T12:21:00.000-08:00

CCM is a crap man. I dunno what's up with me.
I cant even identify which question is for the topic i have learnt.
and what i had memorised was gone because i was freaking NERVOUS LIKE HELL.
all i know is, i keep skipping the questions,
keep correcting the spelling mistake.

I couldnt memorise these few days.
i dunno what's up with me.

The feeling is exactly same as the SIM-IBM exam. Turned blank.
total blank. i was totally upset.
The higher expectation you put for yourself, the more pressure it is,
and i think that makes me could not perform at all.

My students were having exam as well,
i was juggling so badly. Ohwells. my fault too. was plain lazy.
And, i really could not study with my friends, i ended up talking.

Next paper Econs. Assignment Due as well.
i feel the stress is up man. SHITTY.
hope econs will be a better one to pull up my marks.

Next week, German class :)
Btw, did i mention i have two duper hot korean classmate.
I just found out my friends around me are so into korea-stuff.
I did not get to know them cause they were in their own world.
ohwells. the other time i say hi in korean...
they roll their eyes.

OHWELLS! THANK YOU!
i think i pronounce wrongly. HAHA

meet parry for movie. Marley and me. GOOD movie.
I have to control my tears man. I saw the girl beside me was sobbing so badly.
ahaha.ohwell. i did not know, there is two station built in the jurong area.
OMG. SINCE WHEN!!!

Exam phobia..

2009-03-04T00:06:00.000-08:00

i have to say that,
when you grow older, you are more more SICK of exam.
or is it the phobia?

pretty sad that i have to turn down the offer of JASON MARZ concert because i have exam straight on the next day. i haven really swallow them down. was too too lazy. :( anyway, i just finished typing the important notes out from like 3 books. and now, all i have to do is attempt the past-year papers. Goodluck to me.

the weather now, is so perfect to go for picnic and sentosa.
i could prob wear my pretty sundress. heh.

i want picnic. Anyone?
ohwells ohwells.

overnight study today. ciao

SURPRISE.

2009-03-02T10:33:00.000-08:00

SURPRISE!!!
Im getting so well fed that im putting weight. recently, my bestfriend, sandro met up with my brother. I was quite very very surprise they clicked. and they are gonna play soccer together. How weird. Now. Chermaine and Sandro have make up :) .

I bought a DUPER LONG study table for my exam. And the green carpet makes me feel like im in some green nice pretty patch of grass. Im very surprise that my missqyan manager to squeeze everything into her dad's car including spencer Chair and her cupboard.

Im a IKEA -Friend now. HEH. i always wanted their yellow little duckie card. :)

CCM exam on this friday. i do not know if i ever make it or not. Anyway, this morning Parry sms me that he went over to the crime scene in NTU about this guy stab the Prof and killed himself. Ohwells...
all i have to say its, Stress makes people goes bonkers.

anyway,
i find it hard to communicate with people. HAHA. Its like " eh i tell you hoh.. this and that" ended up i dunno which words need to be kept or do not need to be kept. I already tried my best to think before i talk. Exam notes are thick enough to remember, and now i have to remember every words of my friends. WAHSIEH.

a few things to update:

weather this week, its boiling.
i bought sundress because of that. HAHA
i fell from the escalator. And my mum gave me a very cute plaster -.-
A DUPER BIG pimple grown on my cheek that im so paranoid now.the pimple brust and..........

night!

BYE. ;)

2009-02-19T10:14:00.000-08:00

:.Closed.:

Will be back very soon ;)